Do you ever have that sad, reflective mood at certain dates?
My day is tomorrow the 27th. Will my children remember? There's every probability they will forget. Not because they are unkind or non-caring, bur we somehow missed on that huge bonding that mothers are supposed to have with two sons and one daughter.
If I do not hear from them I will not be upsett, far from that. I will be sad that we all have missed out on that family magic that you see other families abound in.

As a single mum all energy seemed to have gone into bills and house repairs and make sure the car is running. Then they all leave and you sell the house and discover Futures market. That was exciting, but the trading account dropped from the sky when DOW fell 500 points few years ago and all my money with it. Now its my birthday and I am scratching to go out and buy me a bottle of champagne; there won't be anyone to take me to that special place where I used to be taken many eons ago. Or just that one special person to make me feel special. I had my chances and let good men slip by while I sought excitement.
I remember my mother-in-law used to say with a sigh, 'if I knew then what I know now...'
Here I am, if I knew then what I know now...
You live many years to experience and learn, and when you've got it pretty right,
you end up with Doctors and hospitals and backache, and hip replacement..
Ah, well, I know St.Peter loves me!