It's My Birthday, say something nice
Do you ever have that sad, reflective mood at certain dates?
My day is tomorrow the 27th. Will my children remember? There's every probability they will forget. Not because they are unkind or non-caring, bur we somehow missed on that huge bonding that mothers are supposed to have with two sons and one daughter.
If I do not hear from them I will not be upsett, far from that. I will be sad that we all have missed out on that family magic that you see other families abound in.
As a single mum all energy seemed to have gone into bills and house repairs and make sure the car is running. Then they all leave and you sell the house and discover Futures market. That was exciting, but the trading account dropped from the sky when DOW fell 500 points few years ago and all my money with it. Now its my birthday and I am scratching to go out and buy me a bottle of champagne; there won't be anyone to take me to that special place where I used to be taken many eons ago. Or just that one special person to make me feel special. I had my chances and let good men slip by while I sought excitement.
I remember my mother-in-law used to say with a sigh, 'if I knew then what I know now...'
Here I am, if I knew then what I know now...
You live many years to experience and learn, and when you've got it pretty right,
you end up with Doctors and hospitals and backache, and hip replacement..
Ah, well, I know St.Peter loves me!
Big hugs Mara.
Like you I do not know why we are not a close family either. Just happens I guess.
Like you I have had things happen to us most people gasp at. BUT we are still here
hey?
You have had your share of not such great things happen but in the big scheme of things.
"You are o.k. mate" !!!
Will you go out tomorrow? listen to 3 a.w. most of the night? and be happy.
You know if you lay on the floor and relax completely you can go just anywhere you
want as the mind is SO powerful. Cannot even move the big toe without the mind telling
it to move so happiness is up to you and me and all of us. Many people have everything
but not happy while others with very little are very happy why is that do you think?
Because it is in my opinion how we look at each little thing happens in a day.
I get joy from all the little things in life as like you have many regrets. We could not
go on Mara if we dwelt too much on things you know ,and lets face it we must have done some good along the way lol.
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Happy Birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday dear Mara happy birthday to you.
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You ARE loved Mara! Trully!
More hugs
Phyl.